Life

Life growing up was so different. I was full of life, energy. I was outspoken and unique all at the same time after I got out of school. I had fun each and every day. I hung with friends. I went to church. I was out and about each day doing something that felt good to me.

All the 'life' in me seems to of faded away. Where has it gone? My hopes and dreams have mostly faded away. My child like outlook on life has vanished, and it's something that I'm in need of to keep my sanity. It's something that I want to hold onto. Something that I want back.

Depression took hold of my life early in my teenage years, but hasn't fully let go. Things I used to love doing, I no longer feel the joy from. One day soon, I hope things change. I want to feel that joy again from doing every day things. I want to feel the hop build for another chance; another day. I want laughter to full my heart. I want my heart full of endless sunshine and warm love and laughter.

Putting a smile on my face just isn't doing it. All it's doing is covering the pain and hurt I have inside. I want a smile that's true. True to me. True to my daughter. She deserves it. I deserve it.

In time, happiness WILL prevail!!!